With the darkness of events that happened yesterday, I am overcome with a feeling that I cannot explain. I didn't know Charlie Kirk personally, and I wasn't even a dedicated follower of his. Yes, I watched his speeches, and snippets of debates but why does his death feel so heavy and very personal? I can't explain the feeling that has overcome me and my surroundings, I have never experienced it with death of people I have never met before. It could be the fact that my soul wasn't meant to see what I witnessed on social media in real time yesterday. I have a hatred for social media and the things that my eyes witness. All I could think about is Charlie's wife and kids having to see that pop up on social media for the rest of their lives. This heavy uneasiness for someone I didn't know is hitting me deep in my soul, just gnawing at me. It is creating all the emotions of tears, sadness, anger, frustration, and oddly enough comfort. Sadness because a wife and two small children's lives will never be the same and they will have to go through life without their husband and father, and we lost a conservative voice. Anger because it was such a senseless and cowardly act of evil, frustration because we have lost our morals and compassion for human life, and comfort because I can only imagine the celebration and rejoicing that happened in heaven when he got there.
Charlie Kirk was such a devout man of God, an American patriot, a lover of people and knowledge and the voice of so many people. Charlie wanted to make the country a better place for his children and generations to come. I loved his unwavering faith and passion for Jesus. His knowledge of the Bible and the Gospels inspired me to dive deeper into my own faith and following of Jesus. Perhaps the feeling that has overcome me is just the simple fact that we lost a brother in Christ. I may not have known him in the flesh, but my soul certainly did. The air is heavy and thick, and I can't help but think that this unrelentless gnawing feeling is for a reason. Charlie was doing God's work and was a good and faithful servant. Could his assassination be the literal "turning point?" I know from my faith that Charlie's death is not in vain, and that God is awakening us to quite literally pull our heads out from under rocks and intentionally put our eyes, hearts, and focus back on Him. I know I am so guilty of being very distracted with the chaos of the world, my household, and my own selfishness that I have allowed myself to fall away from God. I am guilty of not putting Him first above all else.
Even today 9-11-2025 as we remember the horrific attack on our country 24 years ago, I remember how united we became as a country and how we bonded together against evil. Now we have people celebrating death and evil like they are celebrating New Years. It's so hard to fathom how far backwards as a country we have come since this day 24 years ago. The attack on Charlie Kirk wasn't just an attack on him and what he stood for, it was an attack on every single person who has a relationship with Christ. We must not allow fear to silence us, and if anything, this must be the moment that lights that fire in our souls to shout from the mountain tops that our hearts belong to Christ. This makes me want to stand up taller, shout louder and stand stronger in my faith and belief in Jesus Christ.
God knew when Charlie was going to meet Him. Even though the events of yesterday are still uncomprehensible, God was prepared for that day and now he is in God's loving hands.
"You will be hated by everyone because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved."
-Matthew 10:22
